Dreams and visions
This is the “dream” I had last night. It was an especially moving, and important dream for me.
I was walking through a forest at night. It wasn’t scary, it was beautiful, full moon. fireflies. I walked until I reached the water, a pond, filled with fish, and lily pads. The moon and the fireflies were reflected in the mirrored pool. A large house, all the lights on, stood at the center of this enchanting moat. I think now that the rooms in the house represent different chambers of my unconscious. I walked on a wooden walkway to get to the house. As I walked, it sank slowly into the water. The legs of my black suit became wet with the warm inviting waters. I saw a woman swimming, and something about her called out to me. I eased my way into the pond, and slowly swam up to her. The air was silent, no crickets, no one talking, no wind, no air at all. I knew none of this was real, but I didn’t care. She was maybe forty, slim face, very short hair, and two very kind, but at the same time, intense, blue eyes. I knew that she was naked, but I knew this from intuition alone, because I never for one second looked away from her face.
“Rose” I said, sadly.
“So, you remember my name?” She said with a smile.
“Why do you still look…like you? I look different now.”
“Because, before I died, this was the face, that I had when I was with you, it was the happiest I had ever been.”
Things came back to me slowly now. Rose and I were in love, more in love than any person has any right to be, and then she died. Later I died.
“Where are you? Who are you now? I still love you, even though when I’m awake I don’t know it. We need to find each oth-”
“We can’t” she says
“Why?! it’s so easy just tell me your name!”
“Tell me your name. You can’t, you won’t remember. You may be able to remember my old name, but who we are now…We have been given a gift! Destiny has allowed us to be together again, even if it’s just a dream, even if it’s just tonight.”
“I…I live in…”
She was right, I couldn’t remember anything.
We walked up to the house, and we sat inside, It was cozy, and warm. Safe.
I could see things going on in other rooms from our windows, some people were naked having parties, drinking, and having sex. Others were sitting solemnly, as if at a funeral. We began talking, about life, and about how much we missed each other. I knew early along that this was a dream, but I chose to, instead of flying or having sex, just to sit, and talk with the love of my lives, Rose.
She looked sad, tragically so. She began to speak:
“This life has been…hard. I wish that it was over, so that I could start a new one.”
She began to cry, and as she did, I cried with her.
“I think I’m going to be raped and killed tomorrow… I don’t know why I know, but…”
My sadness turned to fury, who could do this? Who could hurt my only true love. As my fury intensified, the house began to shake, I could hear rats in the walls, and there were men, warriors outside, trying to break down the walls. The other occupants of the house began wailing in pain in unison. As my anger is reaching a breaking point, a wolf runs in, and lunges at rose, but I grab it’s head, and snap it’s neck. With the dull thud of the dogs body against the floor, the shaking, screaming, and invading all stopped. It was silent again. She reached out, and took my hand, it was warm, safe.
“There is no machine that can stop the wheels of time. We both have to accept our fates, and be thankful that we are together now.”
We just sat after she said this, and we held each other. We said nothing, there was nothing more to be said, We just sat, her in my arms, and we looked out of the window, and onto the full moon. Then she said the thing I had been dreading since the second I realized that this was a dream:
“It’s time. You have to wake up now.”
“No! I won’t, I want to stay here with you, just for a bit longer, please.”
“It isn’t up to me.”
She was right, I could feel myself waking up, slowly, slowly, slowly feeling the bed, the warmth of my blanket.
“Goodbye Daniel. I love you, please don’t ever stop loving me, and maybe we will meet again.”
“I won’t, ever. Even if I don’t know anything else, I know I love you, and I always will.
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Then I woke up, tears streaming down my face.
